Hi! This will be my first English post, and maybe one and only one. Feel like writing an English post in my blog, at least, once in a life time. So, pls bear with my broken english.
I always have a special feeling for Christmas...... White Christmas, snowing, Santa Claus, presents, Christmas tree, Christmas song, feast..... The picture that kids will dream of. A movie years ago, Polar Express, describe those feelings the best.
Still remember i went for this movie alone, cried in the cinema and walked out with deep thoughts in my mind...
Of course, I grown up. Hoping I still persist to be who or how I wanted myself to be..... being the one who still heard the sound of Santa Claus's bell.
But things changed, people changed, the world is changed..... and I've changed. I changed to fit in this world.
As i go around, watching people walked in and out from my life...... I keep all the good and bad in my heart. No more shouting and punching on people...
However, this is a very awful year for me... full of disappointment and miserable feelings. First time in my life I feel like I'm so useless, where I couldn't achieve the expectation even though I think I had working hard enough to pursue what I have to.
Always think we can do better than this, but why things always not work out at the very first place...? Or everything always have a better choice?
I'm not sure. Finding answer for every question i asked, as usual...
Anyhow, wishing everyone Merry Christmas and have a blessing new year.
